Wednesday, March 18, 2009

One month-hold it together

This picture is taken at Ansley's surprise birthday party at her school-Creme de la Creme in Buckhead. She was so excited and in the picture is Ms. V one of her teachers. When we went to the school to tell them what happened (the Monday after the Saturday). Ms. V just kept screaming "my baby, my baby". My little girl is loved so much at that school and around the world!

Tomorrow will be exactly one month until Ansley's 4 year old birthday. I feel like I have to remember to breathe it hurts so bad. I think only my skin is holding me together-if I get even a paper cut I could fall a part.


  1. I have just had a look on this site and I would like to say how sorry I am.
    I know the pain you are going thru and would like to send my love to beautiful Ansley for her birthday. It would have been Declan's 4th birthday on the 4th of April and I found the day very hard.
    Jessica, you are doing so well dealing with this. Your site is a loving tribute to your beautiful angel and it you should be proud of yourself for being such a fantastic mum and keeping her memory alive.
    Sending you my love
    Yvonne ( Declan's mummy)

  2. Thinking of you today on Ansley's 4th birthday.
    A SIDS mother once told me "the pain will never go away, but you will learn to manage it better". It's been 3 1/2 years since we lost our daughter, Hannah, to SUDC and I think that was the best explanation I ever heard.
    Yet I know that today, on Ansley's birthday, there are no words of comfort. Know that others are thinking of you. And I would like to think that Hannah and Ansley are celebrating their birthday's together in heaven (Hannah had her 5th birthday on April 11th). May you have a moment of peace today!
    Emily & Samuel in our arms
    Hannah in our hearts